Scared and excited. 72 y/o with 30+ years of AA sobriety. Decided to drink about 5 years ago. At first it was exciting to be partaking of all the new flavors that hit the market while I was sober. Eventually it distilled(no pun intended)down to vodka.
I drink to go to sleep and like the knock out feeling. Needless to say that took on a life of its own and the sense that I am wasting my days feeling less than par has affected my self esteem and energy.
Being retired with no need to “make a living” I don’t have the need for restraint I felt all those years when I worked and was AA sober.
I am reading the Responsible Drinking book and been poking around this site for a while now.
Here I go now . . .